Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Sometimes goldfish grow bigger when they are taken out of their confines. Sometimes people are confined for so long that when they are freed they can never know it, for the confine has become their mind. I fear that I am the latter. The difference between animals and humans is self-awareness, and perhaps this is a curse. I think therefore I am. Yet it is this awareness that damns us. Why can't I be the goldfish?
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Recent Videos
Sorry it's taken me so long to update this. What with everything going on I haven't taken as many pictures as I wanted. Since a lot of people still haven't seen Lizzie yet, I thought it would be better to take videos. Enjoy! :)
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Taylor Swift "Never Grow Up"
Your little hand's wrapped around my finger
And it's so quiet in the world tonight
Your little eyelids flutter cause you're dreaming
So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light
To you everything's funny, you got nothing to regret
I'd give all I have, honey
If you could stay like that
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple
I won't let nobody hurt you, won't let no one break your heart
And no one will desert you
Just try to never grow up, never grow up
You're in the car on the way to the movies
And you're mortified your mom's dropping you off
At 14 there's just so much you can't do
And you can't wait to move out someday and call your own shots
But don't make her drop you off around the block
Remember that she's getting older too
And don't lose the way that you dance around in your pj's getting ready for school
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple
No one's ever burned you, nothing's ever left you scarred
And even though you want to, just try to never grow up
Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room
Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
And all your little brother's favorite songs
I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone
So here I am in my new apartment
In a big city, they just dropped me off
It's so much colder that I thought it would be
So I tuck myself in and turn my night light on
Wish I'd never grown up
I wish I'd never grown up
Oh I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up
I could still be little
Oh I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up
It could still be simple
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple
Won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heart
And even though you want to, please try to never grow up
Oh, don't you ever grow up
Oh, never grow up, just never grow up
And it's so quiet in the world tonight
Your little eyelids flutter cause you're dreaming
So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light
To you everything's funny, you got nothing to regret
I'd give all I have, honey
If you could stay like that
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple
I won't let nobody hurt you, won't let no one break your heart
And no one will desert you
Just try to never grow up, never grow up
You're in the car on the way to the movies
And you're mortified your mom's dropping you off
At 14 there's just so much you can't do
And you can't wait to move out someday and call your own shots
But don't make her drop you off around the block
Remember that she's getting older too
And don't lose the way that you dance around in your pj's getting ready for school
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple
No one's ever burned you, nothing's ever left you scarred
And even though you want to, just try to never grow up
Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room
Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
And all your little brother's favorite songs
I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone
So here I am in my new apartment
In a big city, they just dropped me off
It's so much colder that I thought it would be
So I tuck myself in and turn my night light on
Wish I'd never grown up
I wish I'd never grown up
Oh I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up
I could still be little
Oh I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up
It could still be simple
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple
Won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heart
And even though you want to, please try to never grow up
Oh, don't you ever grow up
Oh, never grow up, just never grow up
Friday, July 22, 2011
Making a Memory
I am sitting in the hospital. It is Friday night. We will probably not get discharged until Sunday morning. I want to take this time to gather some of my thoughts into a memory. Andy is spending the night at home with Emma tonight, so it's just me and Elizabeth!
She is so amazing. Definitely different than Emma. Everything about her is different, and yet I see some similarities. I see some Lorenz in her (my mother's family), and Andy says that she looks like Stephanie when she was a newborn. She was 9 lbs. 2 oz. - my exact birthweight! She has very long fingers with very dainty fingernails and a very small mouth. :) She is lying under the blue LED lights right now and looks sooo comfy... like she was in a tanning bed!
It is nice for things to be quiet and for me to be away from home so that I can actually write, but I feel lonely at the same time. Why is it that we always want what we can't have? When people are here you think about how you are tired and want to sleep, yet when they leave you wish you weren't alone. We humans are puzzling creatures.
I've been reading Sherlock Holmes and it's very good. I'll probably read some more in a second, as I've run out of things to write.
She is so amazing. Definitely different than Emma. Everything about her is different, and yet I see some similarities. I see some Lorenz in her (my mother's family), and Andy says that she looks like Stephanie when she was a newborn. She was 9 lbs. 2 oz. - my exact birthweight! She has very long fingers with very dainty fingernails and a very small mouth. :) She is lying under the blue LED lights right now and looks sooo comfy... like she was in a tanning bed!
It is nice for things to be quiet and for me to be away from home so that I can actually write, but I feel lonely at the same time. Why is it that we always want what we can't have? When people are here you think about how you are tired and want to sleep, yet when they leave you wish you weren't alone. We humans are puzzling creatures.
I've been reading Sherlock Holmes and it's very good. I'll probably read some more in a second, as I've run out of things to write.
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Sitting Waiting Wishing!
So, we are just sitting here waiting to have this baby. I seriously never thought it would take this long. I guess I just assumed that since Emma came at 38 weeks 4 days that Elizabeth would come early, too. I am due on Monday and still no signs of anything. I am too comfortable! I know that God's timing is perfect, though, so I am trying to enjoy the little things. Andy has started school and is stressing out about Calculus, so I think that at the very least I will wait until he is done to start school again. At the very most this should only take about 6 months.
To me, Emma seems like such a big girl compared to the baby from which she's grown, but when I see her interract with other children I realize just how small she really is. People still call her, "baby," which I suppose is accurate for a 1 year old. :) If Elizabeth waits until at least the 12th, they will be 21 months apart.
I have been growing with the Lord a lot lately, just reading my Bible more regularly and what not. It is helpful for the times that I feel lonely or unsure about the future. One thing that really stressed me out was setting up our Cash Flow Analysis. I seriously started sweating and hyperventilating just going through all the numbers. I had to go to my Bible and find this verse:
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[e]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:25-34
To me, Emma seems like such a big girl compared to the baby from which she's grown, but when I see her interract with other children I realize just how small she really is. People still call her, "baby," which I suppose is accurate for a 1 year old. :) If Elizabeth waits until at least the 12th, they will be 21 months apart.
I have been growing with the Lord a lot lately, just reading my Bible more regularly and what not. It is helpful for the times that I feel lonely or unsure about the future. One thing that really stressed me out was setting up our Cash Flow Analysis. I seriously started sweating and hyperventilating just going through all the numbers. I had to go to my Bible and find this verse:
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[e]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:25-34
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